Stupid?

They made me feel stupid...

It was the first day and I was supposed to join them. I was informed that we are to wear a business attire. I don't have any, but tried my best to look for one... but it seems that there's no one to borrow to. As a result, I just wear my usual jeans, sneakers, and my only polo.

I reported at the office with it, as I thought that they might consider me since I really don't have anything of a business attire. But I was wrong. As I enter the lobby the guard on duty ask me why I was wearing blue jeans. I politely explained and he told me that I should talk to the training manager first, and I said that's fine with me.

I was sitting in the lobby, waiting to be dealt accordingly. Other employees, and (supposedly) co-trainees are passing by and looking at me. It was fine with me though, the only problem is that the guard are muttering something while looking at me... as a result employees and co-trainees are looking at me suspiciously as if I have done something wrong.

Almost half an hour have past, the training manager hasn't talk to me yet. The guard ask again why I was wearing blue jeans, again I politely and even explained further... his reply was disappointing and irritating at the same time, he said "so, company and susunod sayo". I blushed, no one ever spat that sentence on my face, never before. Another moments have passed, and the recruitment assistant was there... ask me the same question. I was already feeling stupid at that time, by what the guard said, no one dealing with me accordingly.

At last, the training manager talk to me. But it was the most disappointing and irritating approach. She didn't ask me anything... she just simply said that I could go home and wouldn't be accommodated.

I didn't ask anything... I just simply said that's fine... but I was already teary eyed...

I was teary eyed because, imagine my effort going at their office event though I wasn't wearing the PRESCRIBED attire, imagine my hope of being considered as I was looking forward for it as it is the FIRST sales account I would be in. Imagine me enduring the stupidity they made me feel all along waiting to be dealt accordingly.

It was their rule, and I have no intention of breaking it. The thing is they could have consider me even if just only for the training. I could buy a set of business attire ones I received the allowance they would gave us for the training.

I know I shouldn't be feeling this way. Thing is, I was just (and very much) disappointed with their decision, and how they have dealt with me (especially that guard).

Huwag mo ituloy application mo diyan, lalo na kung ganyan suot mo. Kaylangan nila dito pormal ang attire. Sa pagapply lang nila tinatanggap ang jeans. May experience ka na sa call center, hindi ka bagay dito, damit ang tinitignan dito, hindi service... masasayang ka lang. A former employee of that company told me this when I applied there. I didn't believe it at first, and I still don't want to... because their company is known for great service...

Right now, I'm still hoping that they would reconsider me and give me a call. But still, they haven't...