Sad Letter

One sad letter I have read... very sad indeed that I almost cry while reading the book.


My dearest Richard
For you are still dearest to me, though you have been so cruel. Better if you have found the courage to stay, and show patience, and take your part in our trouble, not heap on more vanishing. Things have been hard with all of us since you left. First, mother spent a fortune seeking you, and all of us suffered Mr Coldstone's anger as money slipped steadily away. "What! Yet another costly search! Let the ungrateful boy be lost forever. Waste more of your dwindling fortune on this folly and I will make you pay for it twice".

And so he did. Last year she died (of him too close, and you too far). And, from the day that she was buried, he would not give a penny to look for you. "why hunt for such a knave". It fell to me to keep the search alive. I have no money of my own. And so, last year, upon my sixteenth birthday, I married Charles. I do not love him as I know I should, and he cannot make me happy. But he is prosperous, and he has promised to keep up the search. His solicitor put notices in every paper daily.

And perhaps you will never see them. Or this sad letter (for you must have fled halfway across the globe). But, if you do, take a moment to weep, for this will be the first and only letter you will receive from your loving sister. If I should live, I'd not allow a shadow on your homecoming. But if I die in fever of childbirth, as so many do, then Charles will send this letter to our old home, to tell you why you return to cold , cold silence.

Fare you well, brother

Do I Count for Less...

How selfish it would have seemed if I had cried out then...

But what about me?

I wish my family well, of course I do... but does my happiness not matter? Do I count for less? Am I suppose to nod and smile, and be a brave lad forever, while everything changes around me, and everything I loved is different? No, not just different... I will say it worse!

Total Eclipse of the Heart

One song I wanna sing right now...

Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll never be the boy you always you wanted to be
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's nothing any better and there's nothing I just wouldn't do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart