What Do You Think You're Playing At?

I thought it would be today, but then it would be on Thursday!

What do you think you're playing at?

That's it I quit...

You're very disorganized.

I don't wanna work with you anymore...

Certification?

It's our phone certification today... I'm not confident that I would pass this one. Even if i did, I don't think this one would work out for me.

I'm so nervous... and the agony is killing me.

What aggravates it most is that I just receive an sms from my very close guy friend here in the training, and he told me that I he wouldn't be able to pursue on this one because of some previous health issue. Our account made actually a big deal of it that's why he was pulled out of the training.

He's the only guy that I can talk to during the training. Most of my company are girls.

I miss him...

You Belong With Me

"She wear high heels, I wear sneakers. She's cheer captain, and I'm on the bleacher." I really love that line from Taylor Swifts You Belong with Me. Can even say it to you...

Lyrics...

You're on the phone

With your girlfriend

She's upset

She's going off about

Something that you said

She doesn't get your humor

Like I doI'm in my room

It's a typical tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music

She doesn't like

She'll never know your story

Like I do

But she wears short skirts

I wear t-shirts

She's cheer captain

And i'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day

When you wake up and find

That what you're looking for

Has been here the whole time

If you could see

That i'm the one

Who understands you

Been here all along

So why can't you

See you belong with me

You belong with me.

Walking the streets

With you and your worn out jeans

I can't help thinking

This is how it ought to be

Laughing on a park bench

Thinking to myself

Hey, isn't this easy?And you've got a smile

That could light up this whole town

I haven't seen it in awhile

Since she brought you down

You say you're fine

I know you better than that

Hey whatchu doing

With a girl like that

She wears high heels

I wear sneakers

She's cheer captain

I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day

When you wake up and find

That what you're looking for

Has been here the whole time

If you could see

That i'm the one

Who understands you

Been here all along

So why can't you

See you belong with me

Standing by and

Waiting at your backdoor

All this time

How could you not know

BabyYou belong with me

You belong with me

Oh, I remember

You driving to my house

In the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh

When you know you're about to cry

And I know your favorite songs

And you tell me about your dreams

Think I know where you belong

Think I know it's with me

Can't you see

That i'm the one

Who understands

Been here all along

So why can't you see?

You belong with me

Have you ever thoughtJust maybeYou belong with me?

Through Him

I see you through him...

Almost 4 months since I left a happy but gloomy stage. Time had play a big part of moving on, until I met someone... who were almost like you...

I have a new identity, on a new stage... different cast... I thought, now that I had a new one, I would totally forgot you, I was wrong.

One of my colleague who is very close to me from our first day was almost like you. Handsome and hot, sweet and caring... and most of all... he looks exactly like you. I don't mind it at first but it looking at him, talking to him really brings back the memories of you. He really reminds me of you, and how miss you. I wish I could go back. I really do...

I see you through him...

Weather and Emotions 2

It's gloomy outside... inside of me as well...

It's been almost a month since I left the hall where identity of mine was made. But still I haven't fix this problem, confusion eat me up...

Two things I expect it might be. Either I would be out and free but selfish, or stay and caged but safe.

I guess I need to get out of the curtain I was in, and reveal the face and emotion that embrace.

It's gloomy outside... inside of me as well...

I Miss It

I miss my old life...

How I wish I could go back and live it again...

Quote X

Don't always say

"there's still time",

because

there's also a concept of

"it's too late".

Quote IX

It's funny how day by day

nothing change.

But when you look back,

everything is different.

Weather And Emotions

It's raining outside... and so inside of me...

Few more days to count before I leave this mixed hall of weather, where I had my own identity. It's such hard decision to make thou such a great experience and lesson gained, but still... when emotion stirs, weakness embrace in.

And so, as to this day. I have to bid on this wall... and so as to you, as I only have a month to stay, and clear my name away... not only to them but most especially to you, thou I'm nothing to you as you mean something to me... I have to erase my name on your memory, as I have to erase you on me... thou it would take time for me.

After that, I would still have to face another problem to fix. And I am confused to what should I choose... is it me or them? It's selfish of me not to choose them thou something tells me that I have to choose myself for I have think of them all mylife. I guess I need to get out of the curtain that I was in.

It's raining outside... and so inside of me...

Shout (1 year)

Shout is already 1 year...

But I haven't reached the number of post that I planned to have when it reach it's first year. But it's OK... I guess I just lack time updating Shout, and there wasn't even topic or updates to post in. But it doesn't matter. at least Shout made this far.

Whew... wish another year for you...

Time Management

Whew...

This past days, I can't seem to manage my time. Every morning after work, I can't even hold the broom stick to clean the house, nor have a time to cook. I can't even manage to open the computer and update myself online for about a minute. I felt exhausted from the phone calls I have to resolve. I never felt this exhausted in my life... or maybe my I'm is still adjusting.

The things is... exhausted not about the job... but something else. Weird... so weird that I can't even tell what was that, that make me feel exhausted...

Conflicting? Weird? Confusing? I can't even further expound on this. Worst, I can't even tell what it is...

But one thing is for sure...

It's about you... you've been absent (technically leave) for six days, but then I already miss you... Why? What is that on you that make me feel like this? I'm confused... so confused...

Simple and Complicated Choices

Have you ever asked yourself why does everything in this world have to be complicated? Why do we see a lot of variety and choices? And yet we only need one? Why can't everything just be simple?

That's life, enjoy it. It doesn't matter if you picked the wrong one. After all, how will you know which is right,

if you don't know which is wrong.

Quote VIII

Why should I ruin
the perfectly beautiful
petals of the flower,
when I know from the start that
he loves me not.

Exhausted

My first week of probi period on my new work was so exhausting...

Queuing I might say. I was just done with a call, and here comes another. I only got to drink water during my break, sometimes on unscheduled break. However, I enjoy it... the job. Even though at times I got an irate caller, most of the call are customers who are jolly, they laugh even if there is nothing to laugh about... it's feels great, especially if I got to resolve the issue of the the customer.

I guess this what it really feels like being a customer service representative. Exhausting, yet fun. Challenging, and I'm up to it.

I love it...

How Can I Walk Away...

Baby can't you see

you're the one for me,

but you belong to another.

I don't wanna hurt nobody,

but my heart just can't hold back.

American Idol 8

Danny Gokey--my favorite contender for this season.

Though, I was a bit saddened when Jumar was out. Danny's rendition of Hero was really great. I love it. I hope he would make it to the top12.

Other contenders that I would love to see on the top 12 are Michael Sarver, Lil Rounds, Cassey Carlson, Matt Breitzke, and Anoop Desai...

Anoop was really my bet since the audition.

Why?

Why am I falling for someone I can't be with?

Why do I get head over heals for someone who's impossible to be mine?

Am I destined to be hurt? Or am I just a fool who fantasize somebody out of my reach.

Quote VII

Finding the treasure

without being ready yet to fully own it

will make you restless.

2nd Post Of The Year... Another Job...

Today is my first day at work...

It was actually the first day of our training at Motif Limited located at Libis. It was actually fun.
Meeting the HR Director, Chief Innovations Officer, and the Operations Manager. We had a lot of fun.

That's it for now...

1st Entry For The Year And For The Month...

Whew...

That was long since i had my last entry...

Anyway... got nothing important to say...

It's just that I saw the crew I had a crush on at the Internet Cafe, a few walks away from our house (but it's already close now). I saw him twice. First when I had something print out at their branch in Cubao, QC. 2nd was now, at their branch here at Edsa Central, Ortigas. He's really gorgeous... too bad I don't have a picture of him. I miss him... aaawwww...

That's it for now...