Stupid?

They made me feel stupid...

It was the first day and I was supposed to join them. I was informed that we are to wear a business attire. I don't have any, but tried my best to look for one... but it seems that there's no one to borrow to. As a result, I just wear my usual jeans, sneakers, and my only polo.

I reported at the office with it, as I thought that they might consider me since I really don't have anything of a business attire. But I was wrong. As I enter the lobby the guard on duty ask me why I was wearing blue jeans. I politely explained and he told me that I should talk to the training manager first, and I said that's fine with me.

I was sitting in the lobby, waiting to be dealt accordingly. Other employees, and (supposedly) co-trainees are passing by and looking at me. It was fine with me though, the only problem is that the guard are muttering something while looking at me... as a result employees and co-trainees are looking at me suspiciously as if I have done something wrong.

Almost half an hour have past, the training manager hasn't talk to me yet. The guard ask again why I was wearing blue jeans, again I politely and even explained further... his reply was disappointing and irritating at the same time, he said "so, company and susunod sayo". I blushed, no one ever spat that sentence on my face, never before. Another moments have passed, and the recruitment assistant was there... ask me the same question. I was already feeling stupid at that time, by what the guard said, no one dealing with me accordingly.

At last, the training manager talk to me. But it was the most disappointing and irritating approach. She didn't ask me anything... she just simply said that I could go home and wouldn't be accommodated.

I didn't ask anything... I just simply said that's fine... but I was already teary eyed...

I was teary eyed because, imagine my effort going at their office event though I wasn't wearing the PRESCRIBED attire, imagine my hope of being considered as I was looking forward for it as it is the FIRST sales account I would be in. Imagine me enduring the stupidity they made me feel all along waiting to be dealt accordingly.

It was their rule, and I have no intention of breaking it. The thing is they could have consider me even if just only for the training. I could buy a set of business attire ones I received the allowance they would gave us for the training.

I know I shouldn't be feeling this way. Thing is, I was just (and very much) disappointed with their decision, and how they have dealt with me (especially that guard).

Huwag mo ituloy application mo diyan, lalo na kung ganyan suot mo. Kaylangan nila dito pormal ang attire. Sa pagapply lang nila tinatanggap ang jeans. May experience ka na sa call center, hindi ka bagay dito, damit ang tinitignan dito, hindi service... masasayang ka lang. A former employee of that company told me this when I applied there. I didn't believe it at first, and I still don't want to... because their company is known for great service...

Right now, I'm still hoping that they would reconsider me and give me a call. But still, they haven't...

Saturday Buddy

I had just meet up with my best buddy after a long time. Well technically, he just return from Brussels.

We met up a Robinsons Galleria, where we have our lunch (well his treat thou) at Pizza Hut Bistro. As always, he order his favourite putanesca (oh, if only I know how to make putanesca, I'll make some for him), and beefy pizza. After eating, he ask me to tour him around the mall (thou nothing change much to this mall since he left 3 years ago). Then he ask for a coffee shop. Since the only coffee shop (I know) on the mall is Starbucks, then I invite him there.

He doesn't like the ambiance of the shop inside the mall, so he asked if there's another Starbucks around the vicinity of Ortigas.

So, we just moved to another Starbucks shop I know---at Pearl Drive. And he likes it. There, we continue the conversation we had during our lunch.

He told me he loved Brussels, how he promised that someday he'll bring me there to visit a certain spot called Mini Europe where you can see a museum-like collections of different tourist spot in Europe. How he miss Philippines, and he plans to pursue a bachelors degree in Ateneo.

It was fun... I had so much fun... thou at some point, something bothers me...

My feeling I might say...

I'm afraid it might ruin our more than years of friendship...

I'm afraid to loose him...

Disappointed

You turned out to be exactly who I thought you were...

I never pretended to be somebody else. It's been me all along, and it was me who was hurt in front of everybody. I know what it feels like to be afraid to show who you are. I was, but I'm not anymore... and the thing is, I really don't care what people think about me... because I believe in myself.

And I know that things are gonna be okay.

I know that the guy I once knew is somewhere inside of you, but I can't wait for him... because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing...

What Do You Think You're Playing At?

I thought it would be today, but then it would be on Thursday!

What do you think you're playing at?

That's it I quit...

You're very disorganized.

I don't wanna work with you anymore...

Certification?

It's our phone certification today... I'm not confident that I would pass this one. Even if i did, I don't think this one would work out for me.

I'm so nervous... and the agony is killing me.

What aggravates it most is that I just receive an sms from my very close guy friend here in the training, and he told me that I he wouldn't be able to pursue on this one because of some previous health issue. Our account made actually a big deal of it that's why he was pulled out of the training.

He's the only guy that I can talk to during the training. Most of my company are girls.

I miss him...

You Belong With Me

"She wear high heels, I wear sneakers. She's cheer captain, and I'm on the bleacher." I really love that line from Taylor Swifts You Belong with Me. Can even say it to you...

Lyrics...

You're on the phone

With your girlfriend

She's upset

She's going off about

Something that you said

She doesn't get your humor

Like I doI'm in my room

It's a typical tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music

She doesn't like

She'll never know your story

Like I do

But she wears short skirts

I wear t-shirts

She's cheer captain

And i'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day

When you wake up and find

That what you're looking for

Has been here the whole time

If you could see

That i'm the one

Who understands you

Been here all along

So why can't you

See you belong with me

You belong with me.

Walking the streets

With you and your worn out jeans

I can't help thinking

This is how it ought to be

Laughing on a park bench

Thinking to myself

Hey, isn't this easy?And you've got a smile

That could light up this whole town

I haven't seen it in awhile

Since she brought you down

You say you're fine

I know you better than that

Hey whatchu doing

With a girl like that

She wears high heels

I wear sneakers

She's cheer captain

I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day

When you wake up and find

That what you're looking for

Has been here the whole time

If you could see

That i'm the one

Who understands you

Been here all along

So why can't you

See you belong with me

Standing by and

Waiting at your backdoor

All this time

How could you not know

BabyYou belong with me

You belong with me

Oh, I remember

You driving to my house

In the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh

When you know you're about to cry

And I know your favorite songs

And you tell me about your dreams

Think I know where you belong

Think I know it's with me

Can't you see

That i'm the one

Who understands

Been here all along

So why can't you see?

You belong with me

Have you ever thoughtJust maybeYou belong with me?

Through Him

I see you through him...

Almost 4 months since I left a happy but gloomy stage. Time had play a big part of moving on, until I met someone... who were almost like you...

I have a new identity, on a new stage... different cast... I thought, now that I had a new one, I would totally forgot you, I was wrong.

One of my colleague who is very close to me from our first day was almost like you. Handsome and hot, sweet and caring... and most of all... he looks exactly like you. I don't mind it at first but it looking at him, talking to him really brings back the memories of you. He really reminds me of you, and how miss you. I wish I could go back. I really do...

I see you through him...